“Before we can fight for the freedom of others, we must first free ourselves”.Dionne Faustina Amoo
At the start of this racial paradigm shift, I was so emotionally charged that I was convinced I was going to be part of the change. I was no longer going to rest on my laurels and attempted to spur myself into action. But I didn’t know where to start. I asked myself, what the hell is this mental block? Why am I so confused about something I’m so clear about? Why the oxymoron??
To get to the bottom of this, I knew I needed to take some time out to gain clarity. One evening, after putting the kids to bed, I lit some candles, put on some soothing meditative music and just lay still. It was in that moment I realised that I was holding in some pretty f**ked up memories and feelings about my own experiences of racism.
As a non-confrontational person, there were lots of racial incidents that had occurred, but instead of me dealing with these properly, I just diffused. I realised that there were so many situations that I was obviously angry about, but just applied the “it is what it is” mantra. By doing this, I had unconsciously building up an internal repository of pain. How can I help others when I wasn’t even helping myself?
If you’re following my blog, I’m guessing that like me, you’re looking to build a true understanding about what we can do and how we can help to build a more equal and harmonious society. But before we attempt to immerse ourselves on this journey, we need to take time out to self-reflect to grow our understanding of who we really are, what values do we truly have and ask ourselves why we think and act the way we do.
I invite you to take 30 minutes out of your day every Sunday to self-reflect. By doing this, you will be giving your mind the regular servicing it needs and your next steps will become so much clearer.
I’ve provided some links below to some of my go-to meditation music:
Sending love and light always.